28 weeks

So my hubby woke up this am and said, OH MY GOD, THE BABY WILL BE HERE IN 12 WEEKS". 3 months sounds verey different than 12 weeks. 12 weeks seems liek nothing and it will go by so fast. I am not the best in handling change or new territory-it is not the actual change but it is the leading up to the change that gets me. My hubby is the opposite because he does better in the leading up to change part. We make a good macth for this reason. But at the end of the day, everything that we have ever done together as a team has worked out great because we are a team. In the past few weeks, we have had a lot of taks about repsonsibilities changing and who will do what etc. My job is to keep the boob accessible to the baby. Scott will do everything else..lol..kidding, for the first 2 weeks I think it may be that wasy but then we will both fall into parenting pretty fast. We have a great support system. I just wanted to check in and say hello. I am off to meetings for the day but I was feeling bad that I had not blogged for a few days.

XO

catching up..

Wow it has been so long. I always hate when bloggers, who I love reading thier blogs, stop blogging what is happening. So here is the deal. I thought September was going to be the time that I slowed down at work but actually that is not happening. You all know that I stopped working on one of our construction sites, luxury condominiums that we are developing, and now I am up at corporate about two or three days a week in meetings for part of the day. There is a part of me who loves it-being in commercial real estate around a bunch of men who all cut each other off, and there is another part of me that is sooooooooooooooooooooooo tired. I do well with these types of men and I almost feel like it gives me the chance to say my point even louder (Thank you to the corporate commercial boiler room that I used to work in and that really helped me to develop these skills.) So it is a catch 22. Bottomn line I am grateful for a few reasons.

1. I started thinking too much about the baby and reading books and so on.
2. I started feeling like my only biz partners were my dogs, Stan and Esther, and my un born son who was vice president of the company.
3. I started thinking about things that are none of my business.

So with all of these..let's just say that life is better this way. It is hard not to have fear about the baby coming and because men and women think so differently, well let's just say my hubby (my best friend and partner) and I do not get the same anxieties. Most Men are linear and with that..they do flight or flight in the momment, while most women (ME) do flight or flight when our head is thinking of any momment of time in my HEAD. And with hormones (yes, I give props to all women who have gobe through pregnancy or menopause), well let's just say that it is a whole different level.

Well holidays are coming up and they have always been hard for me.

1. My dad is a rabbi and was at one time in my life but is not anymore so Jewish holidays can be tough.
Then there is alwaysn an X factor that can make them even more stressful.

But I am trying to just show up for my family and my in laws as Rachel and not preforming Rachel so that I can enjoy these blessings. I think it is also hard when we mesh families. I am very lucky for my in laws but I get my nutty family and "getting" another family can be tough.

So what is happening with the pregnancy. We started birthing class and it is going well. Scott saw a video of a birth (thank God) I am not going to be the first. And he did not die. I have tons of indigestion and I sm started to feel hot all of the time. But life is good. I have realized that you can read books, talk to people, surf the NET, but every birth is different and every baby is different. It is almost like when you get older and oneday, you realize that actually life is about admitting that you just don't know.

Love you lil one.

Midwife

I spoke last night to a midwife I am going to interview, Ronnie Rothman (another )crazy jew like me). It was a very different experience than the MD. She and I spoke for over 10 minutes, while she was driving back to the hospital after being up all night. She works with one other midwife, Julianna, and so if I go into labor and Ronnie is in another room, Julianna will start and Ronnie will finish. They also have a doctor on thier team who works at the hospital 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. He lives 5 minutes away from the hospital and is called if there is any emergency, just like our MD wold be called if I went into labor etc. The nicest part is they do not work on timelines. I do not want and epidural or pitocin and so that is very important to me. It was also great to speak to a woman about birth and not be rushed, which is what I feel with the MD. I want this little one to come out to the world in a natural and peaceful surrounding with a team full of spirited women and my hubby. The amazing part is that my husband supports me in any decision I make about the birth but as I have said before, he feels very strongly about being in a hospital and I agree.

So I am meeting her on Thursday and we are taking the tour of the hospital. The other part that is very cool-the midwifes have the option of using the jacuzzi's and so I am really excited too.

About the little one, he is moving around a lot and sitting on my bladder at least 4 times a week. I have started to relax again about this pregnancy. I spent the day with my mom doing regsitry and looking at layette clothes and now I feel better. I don't know what I would do without my relationship with my mom. I also think about these couples who do not share thier lives with each other. They alsmos live of life of marriage but separate but that is not my life. My husband is my best friend and I am excited to start with journey with him. Although last nigth he told me that he may faint in the delivery room-thank God for the spirited women. LOL.

25 week belly shot

Blame it on the rain!

A little about my family: my hubby, my two dogs and the little baby inside of me all sleep non-stop when it rains. I know the baby moves around a lot but when it is raining, this baby is just like his dad. The minute is stopped raining, he was back in the ring and ready for a good fight. Slam! Pow! Punch! Kick! He has also decided to sit on my bladder more this week, not everyday, but a lot. I knwo this is happening when I have to pee 5 times in a 40 minute period but then the next day it is fine.

My girlfriend, Stacy, has a baby-sitter that just gave birth and we weant to the hospital to see the little one. He was so little and it was so exciting to see him. Of course, nerve racking because the next time I will go to the maternity ward will be for this little one inside of me. It furthered my thinking about the midwife and MD thing. If I were not planning on going natural, I do not think I would give a shit. I would go with the MD since I would be given an epidural and not even think twice about labroring in different positions. This is not the case. There has been so muany studies about giving drugs during birth. I am not talking about an epidural for an hour or two, I mean the women who get it once they are 2 cm dialated. For me I do not want to drug the baby before he enters the world, if I can avoid it. Both my girls, Stacy and Brandi opted for the epidural for the last 30 minutes to relax the uterus enough to get the baby out. Again, there is no judgement, this is my choice only. And yes, I am scared about the pain but that is why I have my hubby, my mom, my doula, and Dory (what an amazing team)!


So bottom line: My hubby, who is an amazing man, supports any decision I make. He has only one wish, that we do it in the hospital and I agree.

It is great to be supported by my husband and my family. I do not know where I would be without them.