Prenantal Ypga

So here are my thoughts on this class. I would rather work out doing circut training for 10 hours than do yoga. Now I can say that I probably do not like the fact that it is a class led by a person because I have always enjoyed doing sports that were on a team but alone type of sports such as running, swimming and lifting weights. I also know that I do not enjoy being in a class with tons of people and that I would enjoy a one on one yoga class. Not to mention that I got hurt..I know you may be saying..got hurt?? in yoga??/ but yes, I did..a neck injury but I know these stretches are good for me. So with that I am going to go to a class when I want but do the DVD (thank god for the DVD) at least once a week. So I will just do my best.

32 weeks Pregnant Picture

Ok. So I am a week late. LOL

Better

So I think not only was I hormonal but I was also getting sick. Last week I had to work next to this guy for 2 days that was sick but of course, he never told me that he was ill. I am doing better and the good cry the other morning really helped. I feel normal again. Just wanted to let everyone know that I have not moved away.

Also, it seems that my stomach has popped because last week I was not this big. I am sure there are many levels of popping during the 8th and 9th month. But the lil man is sure growing.

I will follow soon with a pic.

blah, blah pregnancy hormones

Well I need to blog since it has been a couple of days. I have not really slept in about 4 days. I pee at least 10 times before I go to sleep and then at least 3 or 4 during the night. I am only 8 months along..could this get any worse? I feel annoying these days. I am usualy really independent but lately I have been so needy. But I am not needy in the way of..hey, thanks..I am needy in this way..Oh ok (really thinking that my hubby did not do it right)..yeah that way and that way is no fun for anyone. I feel almost like the 1st trimester when I just wanted to run away and live on a boat in the BVI with a little baby boy. Yeah that is healthy. I have no patience, no tolerance and no energy. I feel alone yet I do not really want anyone around me. My brain is not working and it is tough for me to get enough energy to make it through the day. I feel tears behind my eyes and anger in my shoulders. It frustrates me to not be able to take care of the things I need to. I am just so tired. At this point, I would settle for a hotel in Philly..LOL..it all just seems too much. making a phone call is hard let alone talking while I am on the phone.

So poor me..bottom line is that I do not handle feeling crappy to well. I also hate to be needy and ask for help and these days I know I am not that fun to live with. I am not a bitch but I do like things a certain way.

Anything is tough when I am tired and I know it will only get worse. I just feel so sad even though I feel so excited inside.
Hormones..they are the enemy but they are also my friends because they are keeping this beautiful baby growing insde of me with everything he needs.

What a paradox.

I am not feeling sorry for myself.. I am just feeling blah.

Until next time.

Exactly 60 days till the Due Date

Oh Boy! Only 60 days till peanuts Due date. It is so exciting. I have all the baby clothing taken care of. Between Old Navy (thanks for the suggestion ma in law) and the Gap..let's say we are doing good. I felt so good about myself for not going to a boutique for the clothing, especially because we are fronting the check. This whole experience has really strengethened my relationship with my hubby. Birth class was a blessing because it forced us to acknowledge some real issues about birth and parenthood.

As for me these days...I am starting to get tired and so I need to just not run myself so fast. Although I had a few hours where I was totally inspired and then it left..lol..moody, tired, impatient can be the mode of operation if I just don't get enough sleep but luckily it has not been too bad. Well I am off to Yoga tonight, a 8 series class that I signed up for with other new mommies to be. It will be fun and good for me since I do not like sitting still..ALL GOOD PRACTICE.

Oh he just kicked to say hello and tell you all that he will be here soon enough.

XO

TV time

Ok so our TV cable was busted for a week and thank God because we both got in touch with how much we veg in front of the TV. I actually feel like Scott and I are dating again. Last night, our pugs played with Scott and I on the floor (well I do not do much rolling around), we lit a fire and all just laughed (yes my pugs can understand english and they did laugh too). We also played Stan'sfavorite game -Fetch and so he was really happy too. Esther did her usual, observed and looked pretty. I never realized how sucked in I was to shitty TV and how we were mpt talking because of it. Yes we do have a great relationship but when we are connecting it is magical. I feel like I am dating and we are 15 years old and Yes, I actually can have these feelings at 31 weeks pregnant.

This brings me to my next conclusion-I am pretty damn lucky and yes, I worked my ass off to get here. I cleared out my baggage and put it in storage and then found out how to love myself and then found my husband. I met Scott the day he moved back to Philly and was with his partners at one of the buildings I was selling. I saw him, smelled him, talked to him and the rest was history. Over the next three weeks we talked about the deal and how his partners could not step up to the plate but we also just chatted about life. We went on our first date and we talked about everything and nothing. I had never felt so calm around a guy (I figured he had to have something real screwed up in his life but he didn't) and felt so at peace. Then we were engaged 5 1/2 months later, pregnant on the honeymoon and here we are..us and two pugs with one baby ready to come in 2 months. Now that is the Aries in me and the Leo in him. When it is right, never wait.

Letting go...

It has taken me years to be able to say these words without feeling sick. I have learned to let go of many things during these 31 years. Getting pregnant and carrying this baby inside of me has taught me more about myself than any book, retreat or therapy could have ever explained. There was a time-in the beginning of pregnancy-where I wondered how I would make it a whole 9 months because I am so impatient but I have just learned to let go and trust. I never thought I would say that word either and believe it but today I can say it and mean it. I am so lucky for those women in my life who have done this and not just because they tell me what to buy and what not to buy but they teach me how to be a better woman, mother and wife. Scott and I have become so much closer during this experience. My dogs are even closer to me. I have learned how to let people in.

I was just saying to my mom in law that I feel good about everything. I am not worried about the baby's room, even considering that I am Jewish and WE DO NOT set ANYTHING up in the room until the BABY ARRIVES. But I know she will do a great job getting everything together for when WE (3) come home. Trust.

I also have let go a number of resentments that have lingered for even years because getting pregnant has taught me that those feelings in my life do not have room anymore. Now it does not mean I did not get upset but I have learned to let go faster. It is amazing that this little one inside of me has such a presence in my life already. I love him so much already. I am blessed.

And a thanks to my mom in law for painting the baby's room!

XO

Baby Clothing Update

Just talked to Stacy. Here is the deal. I am going to go to Gap for most of the clothes and then do fill ins at Karls for the special stuff. This feels much better. So there is a solution and thank God for girlfriends who have babies.

XO

Baby Clothing

Ok who does not get crazy figuring out all of the things that the baby needs. I know-the basics. Plus since I am jewish, and typically us girls do not have baby showers, well then everyone gives clothes. So I am not going to buy these fancy little outfits but I do need the basics.

Babys R Us-I could not find any really soft clothing at the store. I am not a snob. I will buy at Target, again it is not the name but the softness that sells me. So I thought I could do this the less expensive way but I do not see how this is possible.

So it Karls again. I went in today and made an appointment with the lady, who of course, showed me a nighty hat was $50. Oh boy this will be a long road. LOL.

I am going to check in with my best girl Stacy and see what she bought at Karls and how much she spent etc.

All is good in the house and in life. The doggies are behaving like good little pugs and Scott and I are getting along great. He is such a wonderful guy but more than that, he is my best friend. He is one of the least selfish people I know. He has taught me so much and I look forward to learning more as we enter new stages in our life.

29 weeks belly

29 weeks

I know I have been really lazy about my blogging. I have been so busy and so tired. The craziest part of this experience has been that everyday is different.

75 days till the baby comes. This week I am picking out the paint for the baby's room and then my hubby and mom in law (Wendy) will paint the room the following week. I do love fall because it it so nice to have the windows open and the fresh air pouring in.

Birth class has been great-well for one of us. My hubby has a tough time with blood and so birth class has not been the easiest for him. Scott has a tough time when I cut my leg shaving but the crazy part is that I know he will be fine that day. He has never let me down when I have needed him and that day it will not be a video but it will be his wife and his son. So I have faith. And we only have three more classes left. LOL.

All is good. The doggies know that my tummy is getting bigger and I tell them everyday that the baby is coming soon. I know they will be great with the baby.

Well that is all for today.

I will try and blog more.