19 Week Belly Pic

Chiropractor/Adjustments and Pregnancy

Today I had my first adjustment during pregnancy. It was so amazing to talk to the doctor about being pregnant and getting adjusted. My one girlfriend swore by it and she had little to no problems with her pregnancy. He is one of the few doctors in this area that specialize in pregnancy and he and his wife reach it as well. It is very cool to not only care for my own health but the baby too. I know the body is all about energy and the spine-so why not treat my body to adjustments. The cool thing is that this baby has forced me to take a look at my own self care. I have become really good at taking care of myself and it makes me proud.

And to my mother in law-don't worry it won't hurt the baby.

I read a lot of blogs and there is always misery. At times I feel like I am one of the luckiest people in the world because my life is full of grace and happiness. It has not aways been filled with light but today it is and not just because of peanut. Scott came hoome from runing on Sunday and he said that while he was running, he asked himself what more in life does he want...then he told me that he has everything..a good wife who is his best friend, two great dogs and enough money to shop organic and at whole foods. So life is good. At times, when my life is good, I think well it is going to end soon but it hasn't and maybe I need to have a little more faith.

So I have to run because my MOM is coming over and I SO happy to see her. One thing about my mom..it stoinks when I don't talk to her everyday..it really stinks when I don't see her at least once a week because she is my soul mate..she is my mom.

As for my little sis, we are heading to NYC for the weekend in August. Massages, theatre, dinners, lunches, food, shopping and a nice hotel..now that is what my POPPOP would say is good living.

Family is just family but they are home.

And to my husband Scott, one of the greatest men I have ever met (except for POPPOP), I love you and thank you for always taking care of my heart.

Peanut is on the move...

Okay so we call this little one Peanut and yes Peanut is moving around so much. I think Peanut likes the night time and early morning. I think Peanut likes to sleep the rest of the day. I always feel Peanut early in the am especially when I am working out and then at night, usually an hour after dinner. Peanut also likes to give feedback to topics we are discussing or likes to jump around when I am listening to music or singing. Like Peanuts Daddy, this kid loves Doo Wop. So there it is and it is only 9 days until we find out what sex Peanut is. Scott won't tell me what he would like..he just say healthy.

As for us, I am so grateful that we are in the place we are in our relationship. He is my best friend and I could not imagine going through this experience with anyone but him. He is one of the most caring people that I have ever met. He truly is my best friend in the world.

Fears this week are to a minimum but it is easy to get lost in the what if's. What if the doggies are nutty around the baby? what id we have to move? what if we cannot afford our lives? what if we...and the list goes on and none of it is reality but it is scary. I am starting to ask my girlfriend, Stacy, things like..how long do you breast feed? And what stroller? all the common mommy asking questions.

So things are good on this end. I am happy to say that my eating is pretty much back to normal. Scott and i were joking last night that the first month we ate everything. Hormones can be a bitch. But now I just eat healthy so that Peanut has good healthy bones.

Well lots of love to anyone.

100 degrees and good air conditioning

Well it is the heart of the summer and I am so happy that I am only 4 months at this point because I am so hot already. I never do really well in the summer months to begin with but carrying around some extra weight and heat is a whole different story. Tired that is new new answer. But then I ask myself-tired??. I work out, I get enough sleep, I eat right but then I realize that I am pregnant. I see tons of women who do not look tired and I have come to the conclusion that those women do well in the summer months. I just want September to get here soon. Today it is going to be 100-105 on the heat index. Wow.
So our little puggies cannot make it too long outside for a walk.

Last night we went to Paradiso in South Philly with our favorite family to celebrate our favorite kid skipping a grade in his school. Yes, Dory and her family. So Gabriel, who loves Scott (my husband) asked if we could all go for a celebration dinner. It is amazing to see Scott with kids because he is just so natural. Also, I have made a commitment that we never go to Italian again because it is too good to resist. I never eat pasta or bread but hey if you put it in front of me..it is hopeless. So next dinner is Japanese, Chinese, Vietnamese, Mexcican..Anything but Italian. The pain last night from eating tons of pasta with red sauce killed me and my stomach. Poor Scott was saying all night to me, with the heartburn which is 1000 times worse than prior to pregnancy, "Are you ok" and " Can I get you anything". A good burp came out and a cringe and then back to sleep. But what saved the day-my little favorite plum or paste, Umeboshi Plum:

http://home.iae.nl/users/lightnet/paramahamsa/umeboshi.htm

This amazing tool for health saved the day and this morning..well I do not feel so bad. Two plums and a few probiotics and I was good to go.

Today, taking it easy on the stomach. Fruit, kefir, miso, cultured veggies, lentil soup, salad and more Ume plums.

One more thing..I notice in pregnancy a tendency to forget how lucky I am and so today I am saying that I am lucky to have this wonderful life full of so much joy.

As for the baby, who we call peanut, we love you so much already. Peanut is definitely like Scott- loves Du wop and is always on the go.

Until my next post.

Ok..back to be grateful

I went to OBGYN today and all checked out great. Gaining 1 pound a week and my blood pressure was perfect and the heart beat was like music to my ears. I have been worried for the past week, ever since we got home from Mexico and I got sick. But I feel better now and I am back to being myself. It is real easy to get lost in the Internet horry stories of other women. It is a catch 22 because I love reading about other women's experiences but I also read about so many scary things that maybe I should limit my blog reading..uuuggghhhh.

Anyway, again all is good and just getting excited for the baby and well just life. I am learning to communicate better instead of holding in my fears or thoughts. So for today, I will communictae clearly.

Thanks to all the great women who have done this before me.

Also let me just say hello to our best buddies Jennifer and Brent!! We love you!

Thank you

Despite the fact that you may all see my next post from Fiji or the BVI, I want to say thank you to my mother in law, Wendy. She is the best cleaner, organizer, artist and grand mother to both Stan and Esther, the cutest Pugs in the world. Wendy stayed at our house while we were in Mexico and we came home to clean clothes, organized everything, artistic post-it-notes and two happy doggies who now cry, "grandma!!!".

Frustrated..

It has been a few days since I last wrote. We went to Mexico for 5 days and it was amazing. It was wonderful just to relax and remember why I got married in the first place..but today well that is another story. It is not Scott, it is that I do not feel good and have no energy for anything. It scares me that I will be like this with the baby...easy frustrated..just like I get with my dogs. Today I feel like crying and screaming at the same time and running away to Fiji to live alone on an island with nobody else. Today I feel like I just cannot handle things or emotions or myself. Scott told me he was going running at 6 pm and I wanted to strangle him. Why do I feel this way? Could it be hormones? Because last night I cried at every movie and today I am so pissed off. I feel today, as I have before during this pregnancy, that this is not my life anymore. I feel like I do not have any right or decsions. I feel like I can't breathe. I felt this way about 2 months ago. It must be hormones but for now..breathing and thinking good thoughts is not helping. I can even feel the tears now but then why do I not want to reach out to anyone? Why do I want to be alone? Why do I want to get in the car and drive to the shore and just look at the ocean?

Today I need a boat, some scuba gear, some clothes, suntan lotion and a good crew and then I can go away. Maybe Friday will be better.